4.06.2006

Broken



Stop –
Don’t torture me by loving me;
I am more fragile than china.

You cannot understand.
I long to cry
But my pain will forever be secret.

I wish you to feel my misery
Yet your sorrow is my death.

Captive of its beloved cruelty,
My heart strains against your steel prison
Shedding bloody tears of lost hope,

Wanting to be free of confinement
Yet knowing that freedom is its death.

__________

To readers:

I will offer no explanation other than that "Broken" is not about being hurt by a guy. It's personal, so don't ask me about it, please.

1.15.2006

Parallelism

Rain is falling outside:
Hear the sounds of my concealed melancholy.
A drop trickles down the windowpane -
My hand reaches out to wipe it away.
But I touch only the cold glass.

My tears are falling slowly now:
See the concretization of my secret sorrow.
A bitter drop slips down my cheek -
My hand reaches out, again, to wipe it away.
But I only feel the sadness intensify.

Written on a gloomy, rainy Saturday.

1.14.2006

Colors

Colors make me think of you:
Red is the richness of the passion
You painted on my heart,
Blue is the sea of meaning
Your infinte eyes hold for me,
Gold is your winsome beauty
That outshines even the sun,
Green is the tranquility
Of fields where my dreams take us,
And white was the color of your shirt
The day I fell in love with you.

For the greatest artist in the world.
Thank you for coloring my life.

How Do I Love?

If words were all it took,
I would define infinity on paper,
And use the most expensive pen
Only to show how much I love you.

If time were all it took,
I would defy death itself,
And wait a thousand years
Only to show how much I love you.

If wealth were all it took,
I would rob all the world's banks,
And sell myself a million times
Only to show how much I love you.

If a miracle were all it took,
I would plead with heaven and nature,
And change every rule in the world
Only to show how much I love you.

But if you love someone else,
I would smile as if nothing was wrong
And allow my heart to break
Only because I love you.

Fatal Attraction



You
My beautiful dream,
Come again to visit my imagination -
Color it with your captivating smile
And stay.

You
My enchanting angel,
Hold me in the secure heaven of your arms;
Fly me to paradise -
Don't fall.

You
My blood-red rose,
Captivate once more my passionate heart,
Draw me ever closer -
Invite my touch.

But
My deceptive love,
Your sharp thorns are painful knives -
Taste my intense agony
As I bleed.